The Last Link
Oh goodness, I think I just realized what exactly it is to lose my driver's license.
1. It means I don't have a driver's license any more!! I cannot drive (until I get another one, and I don't have the time or energy to get one right now).
2. It means I'd better get a state ID before I travel next, or I'll have to lug my passport everywhere.
3. Most importantly, it means I've just let go of my last link to beautiful Maryland. I listened to John Denver today, a bit of a risk considering that winter's around the corner. I realized, to my surprise, that I managed Annie's Song and For You pretty well. (Weird, considering Fi's parents are here and we don't get to communicate very often.) Then again, lately I've managed GnR, Metallica and Zombie by The Cranberries, too, so one might think all's well that ends well. But, to my intense shock, I realized I couldn't sit through Denver's Calypso. And then I remembered one long ago Fall night in Maryland in November 2002, when, studying till the birds started to twitter again, I had listened to Calypso nearly twenty times, replaying it again and again, and enjoying the energizing beat of the music as I did my math. I know that, geographically, Country Roads is a lot closer to Maryland than Calypso is, but the energy of Calypso went well with the general energy of my life in MD. Why did I have to lose my driver's license - and, more importantly, how did usually-so-careful-Me do this?
Well, maybe I should look at it philosophically. Maybe I'll be more at home here now that I have to make a home here. Maybe in time I'll be happy to "come back to IL".
Oh, what the hell, who am I kidding?
1. It means I don't have a driver's license any more!! I cannot drive (until I get another one, and I don't have the time or energy to get one right now).
2. It means I'd better get a state ID before I travel next, or I'll have to lug my passport everywhere.
3. Most importantly, it means I've just let go of my last link to beautiful Maryland. I listened to John Denver today, a bit of a risk considering that winter's around the corner. I realized, to my surprise, that I managed Annie's Song and For You pretty well. (Weird, considering Fi's parents are here and we don't get to communicate very often.) Then again, lately I've managed GnR, Metallica and Zombie by The Cranberries, too, so one might think all's well that ends well. But, to my intense shock, I realized I couldn't sit through Denver's Calypso. And then I remembered one long ago Fall night in Maryland in November 2002, when, studying till the birds started to twitter again, I had listened to Calypso nearly twenty times, replaying it again and again, and enjoying the energizing beat of the music as I did my math. I know that, geographically, Country Roads is a lot closer to Maryland than Calypso is, but the energy of Calypso went well with the general energy of my life in MD. Why did I have to lose my driver's license - and, more importantly, how did usually-so-careful-Me do this?
Well, maybe I should look at it philosophically. Maybe I'll be more at home here now that I have to make a home here. Maybe in time I'll be happy to "come back to IL".
Oh, what the hell, who am I kidding?
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